Wednesday, July 30, 2014

A little update- Second Trimester!

15 weeks today, 25 weeks to go. I'm still feeling great physically, still haven't been sick at all! It's still unnerving to not know what's going on in there.

I'm so incredibly grateful for a lovely twitter friend that passed along her doppler to me. It has given me solace the last couple days.

My roommate cousin and her son will be moving out next weekend! I'm so relieved to finally have my house back. Something about being pregnant has made me very territorial.

My grandma had a mini stroke yesterday. She's a feisty woman though and it was very minor. She's hoping to be out of the hospital today.

Hubs and I are still in a disagreement over finding out the gender of the baby. I don't want to, he insists we HAVE to know. I don't know what he thinks people did 30+ years ago. How did they ever survive?? I don't think it's a compromise for him to know and attempt to keep it from me. I feel like he'll slip and then I'll be angry with him. I need to find a way to articulate how important this is for me. EVERYONE is already bugging me about what it's going to be... and I keep telling them, "it's going to be a baby, what else matters?" It's making me really dig my heels in about NOT finding out. This is special and I don't want to feel like I have to share it with the world. I don't want my baby's life planned out before s/he's even born and that's always what seems to happen.

I'm "showing" now. It's not all baby but I can't "suck in" anymore without some pretty rad discomfort so I'm rocking maternity clothes daily. I've gotten 20 outfits (shirts and pants) for $40 from people selling their clothes online. I'm pretty please with that!

I tried to start a registry online last night... Got as far as deciding on a crib, panicked and closed the window. I'm not ready and it's overwhelming, I think I need help with that.


I've been following the blogs, popping in on Twitter, checking on everyone as I go. It's been difficult. It's a weird stage I'm in. I have such strong emotions that it's hard not to get sucked into every one's sadness and fears. I'm trying to support where I can and protect myself and Nugget when necessary. I feel like I've probably alienated everyone already.

Anyway... that's my quick and dirty update for anyone who's still listening!

8 comments:

  1. Glad your pregnancy is going so well! Good news on having your home back to yourselves also :)

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    1. I can't even wait to have my home back!!

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  2. Yay for 2nd trimester! I'm sorry you and your husband are disagreeing about the gender. Hopefully you can articulate how important it is to you and he can see that. I guess it gets challenging if he feels it's just as important to know, but imho the woman gets a trump card for carrying and birthing the child. :) Not to make light of your situation though - best of luck. I can promise you that the questions about gender will never stop from other people. Never. I get asked daily, and while no one has been rude upon hearing our decision to wait until birth, gender is the number one item they are interested in knowing or speculating on.

    And yes, it's a weird spot to be, pregnant after infertility struggles in this community. But I've found that I make myself feel weird about it, and people in this community have been the most congratulatory and supportive ever. And those that have a hard time reading about a pregnancy may stop reading for awhile, and I've realized that's ok. I was once in their shoes, and with luck they will be blessed with their baby someday like you and I are.

    Glad to get your update!

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    1. Thanks Sarah!! You're right, I might make it weirder than it actually is :)

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  3. Glad it's going well! I agree that you should try to avoid the negative side of the IF world as much as possible at this stage.

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    1. Thanks! It's so hard because I want to be there to support but I'm also really sensitive right now, it's a fine balance!

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  4. Yay for making it to the second trimester. I can't believe you don't want to know the gender. I love being able to talk to our baby and visualize and call it by name. Plus I'm a big planner. But I can imagine the element of surprise would be pretty amazing if you wait. Hope you and hubby work it out.

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    1. Oh I still talk to baby.. S/he's just called Nugget for now!! I don't know why I feel so strongly about NOT knowing... but I just do!

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