My best friend was pregnant, with her 3rd. She was not exactly happy about it, she had always said "Two hands, two kids" so when she found out she was pregnant she was happy, and sad at the same time. She called me knowing that as logical and pragmatic as I am, she could vent her frustrations without judgement. And I didn't judge her. Her ability to get pregnant easily, and on accident no less, has no bearing on my current struggles. Even though I already "knew" it was not going to be so easy for me, I couldn't blame that on her.
So we talked for an hour on my way home from work and I'll never forget the stoplight I was at where I brought up that my cycle had been screwed up again, my "period 3 weeks earlier lasted for just 1.5 days. She gushed, "Maybe you're pregnant!!! We could be pregnant together and it wouldn't be so awful." So that's how she talked me in to taking a test, at 8pm, on January 31st. I don't know why I chose the digital first, maybe it's because I got a bunch of them on clearance and I knew it would just TELL me, no guess work.
So I pee'd, I waited and there it was...
I called my bf immediately, (N was at a concert with friends, I hadn't exactly expected this to be positive) and asked "what are the odds of a false positive.. on a digital! She screamed, I screamed, we were excited! I couldn't wait to tell N (even though we weren't officially trying yet), I was worried about telling my other bf that I would have to miss her wedding in HAWAII. But I was PREGNANT, I was happy! So I downed a bunch of water and peed on a cheapie.. it was negative. We decided that's because I drank too much and diluted my pee. So I went to the store and bought 2 other brands of digi's to use the next morning.
So the next morning, I took a test, it was negative. I started to panic, I called my Dr. and they said to wait until Sunday and test again, give my hormones time to increase. This wasn't the answer I wanted!! Internet to the rescue!!!! I found some stories that showed me hope, the different brands have different sensitivities, it might be too soon... etc. I found other stories that weren't so bright, chemical pregnancies, miscarriages.. I was torn, I was worried, and all I could do was wait.
Sunday morning came and so did another negative. So there they were, my hopes and dreams all laid out on the bathroom counter